To all of my Blogger readers, I just wanted to let you know that I am swearing off this site until such a time that I am caught up with my homework, my work-study award, or until the semester is over.
I am also no longer going to be visiting my Xanga site or my Facebook site. The reason for this (as referred to above) is because I still am not entirely caught up with my homework AND last night I got the first work-study statement that I have gotten all semester, and it said that in order to make 80% of my award, I have to work just under 40 hours per week. I don't know how I am going to manage that, but I must since I cannot afford to pay the difference. I knew I was behind, I did not know I was that far behind. AND I am supposed to be working on my correspondence classes as well... Of course, it is kind of frustrating that they send the first work-study statement now that the semester is half over and there is not much I can do to correct my hours without killing myself...
So, until the end of the semester, farewell.
Friday, October 13, 2006
Saturday, September 30, 2006
A Blessing in Disguise
I don't know what I am going to do after I graduate, I could go home, I could stay here, I could go somewhere else. I have had so many ideas, that I don't know which I will do.
You know, I was thinking just now, and I just realized something; even though I don't know what I will be doing, God has been so good to me. If I stay here I have wonderful friends and a wonderful church family. If I go home I have wonderful friends and a wonderful church family. (I ignore the third option, because odds are I will not go somewhere else immediately upon graduation).
In other words, I will be heartbroken to stay, heartbroken to go. Either decision (to stay or to go) will bring joy and yet heartache at the same time.
And yet there is something else that pulls me to stay...
So that is the blessing in disguise; though I am saddened that I have to choose, God has provided me with such blessings in both places. I must focus on what I have, not on what I do not have. Discontentment comes when you loose sight of what God has blessed you with and you begin to focus on that which you don't have.
You know, I was thinking just now, and I just realized something; even though I don't know what I will be doing, God has been so good to me. If I stay here I have wonderful friends and a wonderful church family. If I go home I have wonderful friends and a wonderful church family. (I ignore the third option, because odds are I will not go somewhere else immediately upon graduation).
In other words, I will be heartbroken to stay, heartbroken to go. Either decision (to stay or to go) will bring joy and yet heartache at the same time.
And yet there is something else that pulls me to stay...
So that is the blessing in disguise; though I am saddened that I have to choose, God has provided me with such blessings in both places. I must focus on what I have, not on what I do not have. Discontentment comes when you loose sight of what God has blessed you with and you begin to focus on that which you don't have.
Friday, September 29, 2006
We're Spinning Around...
It has been a crazy start of school this semester. I don't know about the rest of you, but I feel like the song the Chipmunks (if you have ever even heard of them) sing:
At least those are the words I remember. And I would say they well characterize my semester, especially the first ones: "We're spinnning around, we're up and we're down." Though we are only ending our fourth week of the semester, it has been crazy... I started out caught up in my homework, then as all the other events/activities that I am involved in came up, I started swirling around amidst them, unable to break the downward spiral of ever-late assignments. The things I want to do are endless, the things I have committed to are probably more than I should attempt. I dropped Christian Theology, yet still my classes and assignments loom before me. One of my classes I am not overly fond of; it confuses me. Yet amidst it all, I have my moments of extreme joy and peace. Then there are those moments of uncertainty and doubt. Then there are those moments when my mind is entirely fogged over, then there are those when it is clear. I am tired almost all of the time, yet there are moments, generally in the times of joy and peace, when I do not notice my tiredness at all. Like I said, always and ever up and down.
THANK YOU!!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!!! to Corinne who is letting me use her computer until I can get either mine fixed or get a new one. And who has just been a wonderful friend, willing and ready to listen.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to all the computer people that tried to help Corinne fix her computer so I could use it.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Travis who at least created (leastways discovered) a temporary fix for the internet difficulties I am having.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Laney who has helped me with my Mac in the past and who has continued to offer his assistance in this difficulty.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Hannah who has been so understanding in the situations I have been facing and has let me talk and ramble on for hours.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Dr. Smith, perhaps most of all, who I have been talking to frequently, more than once shedding tears in his office, yet ever kind, ever understanding, helping to guide me and point me in the right direction.
This has been a crazy semester. I finally learned (one would wonder why it took me so long) that one cannot be soley focused on her studies. She must make room for relationships and service. So instead of finding an appropriate balance, I think I have swung far to the other end of the spectrum. It is a very difficult balance to find.
My computer died again. I suspect (and so does Laney) that it is the logicboard again. Unfortunately it is two months past the warranty... If it is the logicboard, I am seriously considering junking it and purchasing a new one. 3.5(ish) years really is not that old, but apparently as computers go, it is. But I spent a lot of money on that computer, for it to die so soon is a bad thing.
But on the brighter side of things, I am caught up with the work in all of my classes except for two. Hopefully I will be able to get caught up this weekend. I have a computer I can use. Travis discovered and showed me a temporary fix so I can get on the internet, even though for 1.5 hr increments at a time... I am feeling much better today than earlier this week (in fact Wednesday was one of the days I was in tears in Dr. Smith's office, Thursday night I was nearly jumping for joy). We are rapidly approaching a brief vacation from classes.
"We're spinning around,
we're up and we're down,
we're taking a ride on the merry-go-round.
We're ringing the bell of life's carousel
and when we get off it no one can tell,
we don't have a care,
when we've got the fare,
but sometimes we don't and we're left standing there.
But soon its okay and we're up off the ground,
and we're riding again on the merry-go-round."
we're up and we're down,
we're taking a ride on the merry-go-round.
We're ringing the bell of life's carousel
and when we get off it no one can tell,
we don't have a care,
when we've got the fare,
but sometimes we don't and we're left standing there.
But soon its okay and we're up off the ground,
and we're riding again on the merry-go-round."
At least those are the words I remember. And I would say they well characterize my semester, especially the first ones: "We're spinnning around, we're up and we're down." Though we are only ending our fourth week of the semester, it has been crazy... I started out caught up in my homework, then as all the other events/activities that I am involved in came up, I started swirling around amidst them, unable to break the downward spiral of ever-late assignments. The things I want to do are endless, the things I have committed to are probably more than I should attempt. I dropped Christian Theology, yet still my classes and assignments loom before me. One of my classes I am not overly fond of; it confuses me. Yet amidst it all, I have my moments of extreme joy and peace. Then there are those moments of uncertainty and doubt. Then there are those moments when my mind is entirely fogged over, then there are those when it is clear. I am tired almost all of the time, yet there are moments, generally in the times of joy and peace, when I do not notice my tiredness at all. Like I said, always and ever up and down.
THANK YOU!!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!!! to Corinne who is letting me use her computer until I can get either mine fixed or get a new one. And who has just been a wonderful friend, willing and ready to listen.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to all the computer people that tried to help Corinne fix her computer so I could use it.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Travis who at least created (leastways discovered) a temporary fix for the internet difficulties I am having.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Laney who has helped me with my Mac in the past and who has continued to offer his assistance in this difficulty.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Hannah who has been so understanding in the situations I have been facing and has let me talk and ramble on for hours.
THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU!!!!! to Dr. Smith, perhaps most of all, who I have been talking to frequently, more than once shedding tears in his office, yet ever kind, ever understanding, helping to guide me and point me in the right direction.
This has been a crazy semester. I finally learned (one would wonder why it took me so long) that one cannot be soley focused on her studies. She must make room for relationships and service. So instead of finding an appropriate balance, I think I have swung far to the other end of the spectrum. It is a very difficult balance to find.
My computer died again. I suspect (and so does Laney) that it is the logicboard again. Unfortunately it is two months past the warranty... If it is the logicboard, I am seriously considering junking it and purchasing a new one. 3.5(ish) years really is not that old, but apparently as computers go, it is. But I spent a lot of money on that computer, for it to die so soon is a bad thing.
But on the brighter side of things, I am caught up with the work in all of my classes except for two. Hopefully I will be able to get caught up this weekend. I have a computer I can use. Travis discovered and showed me a temporary fix so I can get on the internet, even though for 1.5 hr increments at a time... I am feeling much better today than earlier this week (in fact Wednesday was one of the days I was in tears in Dr. Smith's office, Thursday night I was nearly jumping for joy). We are rapidly approaching a brief vacation from classes.
The Lord is my shepherd: I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou annointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Psalm 23
No matter what may occur, these verses bear the promise that God will ever be with me. I will never have need of anything that is truly important. I have no reason to fear. Busted computers do not justify panic attacks or stress. Nothing does! For God is my shepherd. Like a shepherd cares for his sheep, He cares for me. Amazing is it not? After we I, like a sheep have wandered away, have forgotten all of His Words, after I have turned my back on His comfort, after I have sought every other source of peace, when I finally turn to Him that is kind and merciful beyond all measure I find the peace and rest and hope that He so freely offers. Why can I not learn my lesson the first time around?
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou annointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Psalm 23
No matter what may occur, these verses bear the promise that God will ever be with me. I will never have need of anything that is truly important. I have no reason to fear. Busted computers do not justify panic attacks or stress. Nothing does! For God is my shepherd. Like a shepherd cares for his sheep, He cares for me. Amazing is it not? After we I, like a sheep have wandered away, have forgotten all of His Words, after I have turned my back on His comfort, after I have sought every other source of peace, when I finally turn to Him that is kind and merciful beyond all measure I find the peace and rest and hope that He so freely offers. Why can I not learn my lesson the first time around?
Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
that calls me from a world of care,
and bids me at my Father's throne
make all my wants and wishes known.
In seasons of distress and grief,
my soul has often found relief,
and oft escaped the tempter's snare
by thy return, sweet hour of prayer!
Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
the joys I feel, the bliss I share
of those whose anxious spirits burn
with strong desires for thy return!
With such I hasten to the place
where God my Savior shows his face,
and gladly take my station there,
and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!
Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
thy wings shall my petition bear
to him whose truth and faithfulness
engage the waiting soul to bless.
And since he bids me seek his face,
believe his word, and trust his grace,
I'll cast on him my every care,
and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!
~William Walford
that calls me from a world of care,
and bids me at my Father's throne
make all my wants and wishes known.
In seasons of distress and grief,
my soul has often found relief,
and oft escaped the tempter's snare
by thy return, sweet hour of prayer!
Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
the joys I feel, the bliss I share
of those whose anxious spirits burn
with strong desires for thy return!
With such I hasten to the place
where God my Savior shows his face,
and gladly take my station there,
and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!
Sweet hour of prayer! sweet hour of prayer!
thy wings shall my petition bear
to him whose truth and faithfulness
engage the waiting soul to bless.
And since he bids me seek his face,
believe his word, and trust his grace,
I'll cast on him my every care,
and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer!
~William Walford
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Praise Him, Praise Him
Praise Him! Praise Him!
Praise Him! Praise Him! Jesus, our blessèd Redeemer!
Sing, O Earth, His wonderful love proclaim!
Hail Him! hail Him! highest archangels in glory;
Strength and honor give to His holy Name!
Like a shepherd, Jesus will guard His children,
In His arms He carries them all day long:
Praise Him! Praise Him!
Tell of His excellent greatness.
Praise Him! Praise Him!
Ever in joyful song!
Tell of His excellent greatness.
Praise Him! Praise Him!
Ever in joyful song!
Praise Him! Praise Him! Jesus, our blessèd Redeemer!
For our sins He suffered, and bled, and died.
He our Rock, our hope of eternal salvation,
Hail Him! hail Him! Jesus the Crucified.
Sound His praises! Jesus who bore our sorrows,
Love unbounded, wonderful, deep and strong.
Praise Him! Praise Him! Jesus, our blessèd Redeemer!
Heav’nly portals loud with hosannas ring!
Jesus, Savior, reigneth forever and ever.
Crown Him! Crown Him! Prophet, and Priest, and King!
Christ is coming! over the world victorious,
Pow’r and glory unto the Lord belong.
God is so good! It has been a very, very long week, but God has been faithful even so. I think I have finally learned my lesson; people and sleep are of greater importance than homework. It has taken me a long time to learn it, but I have begun to understand this very fact. I do not claim to have it entirely learned though, it is still a difficult balance first to find and then to maintain.
Once again I am rejoicing greatly! For more than one reason. Perhaps one of the greatest being we in the Meal Management class have survived our first entertainment session. It is such a weight lifted from my shoulders. I still am not overly fond of that class, but I think I am finally starting to get it.
On Sunday I am going to help out in a kindergarten Sunday School class, so I am excited about that, but at the same time, a little nervous (for more than one reason) because I have not really done a whole lot of that before... and when I did it was at my church at home which contains far less people than does Placerita. I used to work in the 2's and 3's, but on a good day we would have like maybe 7 children. I want to say the average was 5. The class (and church) has grown since then, but I am never (that is an exaggeration, but it sure seems like it is not) home anymore so I am not sure what they average now.
Well, I think I am going to go now. I am going to go to bed!!! :o) I am so tired! I have been looking forward to this night all week!
Goodnight all!!! Sleep well!!! Do not stay up too late ;o)
Saturday, September 09, 2006
My Day of No Homework
So today I have yet to do any homework :( (another downer to this site, no smileys)
I volunteered at the SCV Pregnancy Center this morning from 9:00-1:00. Then I went to Old Navy and Mervyns in search of a pair of jeans that I like. Unfortunately to no avail. Then I went to a Home Economics Open House at Sara Howard's apartment. Unfortunately only three people came. Then when I got back here it was time for me to get ready to go to Jennie Kay's wedding. Then I went to Jennie Kay's wedding, then I got back, now I am posting on blogger.
I think I will go to bed shortly, I don't really have a lot to say and I am dead-tired (so that is an exaggeration, but still...)
Considering that I really did have a purpose for writing this post, but have forgotten what it was, I think it would indeed be a good time to go to bed. :o)
Goodnight all!!! Sleep well!!!
P.S. Forgive the lousy title, I could not think of what I should call this post...
I volunteered at the SCV Pregnancy Center this morning from 9:00-1:00. Then I went to Old Navy and Mervyns in search of a pair of jeans that I like. Unfortunately to no avail. Then I went to a Home Economics Open House at Sara Howard's apartment. Unfortunately only three people came. Then when I got back here it was time for me to get ready to go to Jennie Kay's wedding. Then I went to Jennie Kay's wedding, then I got back, now I am posting on blogger.
I think I will go to bed shortly, I don't really have a lot to say and I am dead-tired (so that is an exaggeration, but still...)
Considering that I really did have a purpose for writing this post, but have forgotten what it was, I think it would indeed be a good time to go to bed. :o)
Goodnight all!!! Sleep well!!!
P.S. Forgive the lousy title, I could not think of what I should call this post...
Friday, September 08, 2006
A New Beginning
I have decided to start a new blog site. I also have a site on xanga. This will be basically a trial, may the best site win :)
More to come later, I am tired and must go to bed.
I am back! My site on xanga is www.xanga.com/snowy_nevada; if you want to read about the events of the past you are going to have to visit there as I won't be reproducing all of those posts on this one. I am still in the process of considering which blog site I want to use, but I am leaning towards this one. The only downside to this one is that as far as I know you cannot subscribe to the blog sites of others, thereby making it difficult to keep track.
But we shall see. Shan't we?
More to come later, I am tired and must go to bed.
I am back! My site on xanga is www.xanga.com/snowy_nevada; if you want to read about the events of the past you are going to have to visit there as I won't be reproducing all of those posts on this one. I am still in the process of considering which blog site I want to use, but I am leaning towards this one. The only downside to this one is that as far as I know you cannot subscribe to the blog sites of others, thereby making it difficult to keep track.
But we shall see. Shan't we?
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